UP AND AWAY...

What is going on with me? I seem to be a bit confused or just plain annoying these days... First, it was my mistake with Button. Next, my getting insanely angry yesterday... I blame myself for everything but the truth is, there are people who just have a knack for pushing one to the edge. Yesterday, it was Joy who asked me to come to her bar in Lekki 1 to pick up the money she owes me. I went there only to hear that she hadn't been there at all the whole day... Called her only to hear one annoying story of how she had to run off to Ikeja... What? And she couldn't even call to tell me her plans had changed??? Mind, there's a petrol scarcity that has lasted longer than anyone expected... I didn't even have a lot of petrol in my car and the time it takes to get petrol is another matter... I drove back home mad as hell and ready to burst...
Now, there's someone i met recently... To preserve his identity, i'll call him ''Mr Man''. When we met, there wasn't even a single spark of attraction on my part but i found him really interesting to talk to... He crept up on me gradually and one day, i found myself looking at him differently... As it was, i was getting a sizzle someone deep within that was threathening to spark into a flame and i needed to know what it was... So, we'd talked earlier in the day with plans to meet later in the evening but i didn't see him until much later when i was already home fuming with steam coming out my ears when he called to ask to come to mine... I was like ''ok''... He came, with drinks and we proceeded to get roaring drunk while he kept jumping all around. Someone who's got as much boundless energy i've never met before... Add the fact that just a little bit uptight and you can imagine what it'd have been like... I found myself smiling wondering how one person can have that much energy? I never thought it possible... There are times i wake up with a lot of energy and i work it off by going for a run or tidying up around the house. It scares everyone when i tidy up because i throw a lot of stuff in the trash. As a matter of fact, i even threw out Roberta's money sometime ago and had to go dig in the trash to retrieve it. I'd thought it was a piece of paper... Back to the original gist, i was just sitting here looking at him bounding around like a 5yr old when somehow, i found myself drawn to his mouth and before i had time to think about what i was doing, i kissed him... (verdict's in, i'm a slut... or not) His lips were soft like a dream and i leaned in for more... Told him i wasn't interested in casual sex (i've had enough of that, thanks a whole lot) but what i wanted was a proper relationship. Asked him to stay the night... He did... The rest is history but it turned out to be the best night i've had in a really long time. I love to cuddle... A lot... I got that and even more.
As i write this, i have no idea what tomorrow will bring but i am hopeful... I really need to settle down for a while... All this hopping around making mistakes and having sex just for the hell of it is really beginning to wear me out and i could use some stability even if it's just for a while... What can i say? I've spent too long occupying my head with fantasies of ''The Brit'' and it'll be really nice to have someone i don't have to share with anyone... Wish me luck...
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Bee