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Woke up with a bad hangover... I was out last night with a guy my friend Rita and a guy i met a long time ago who didnt remember to call me until yesterday morning... It was a blast but obviously, i drank too much and had to wake up feeling like shit. My head felt like there was an army of little soldiers marching around inside and i couldnt get them to stop.
Okay, here's the gist of the century. I had no idea what possessed me yesterday but i kissed Button last night and he decided he wanted to stay over. What??? I refused of course. Whatever the kiss meant to him had nothing whatsoever to do with me... He kept trying to get close and now he thinks we're back together but we are not. I have made up my mind that i'm not going to even think about getting back with him anymore because of the text he sent me tonight. The guy's got baby mama drama and believe me, that's not one of the things i intend to add to my own troubles... Now, one of the girls he was dating at the same time we were, had twin girls for him and he doesnt want to marry her. Apparently, she decided she wont let him see the kids anymore and he took her to court in the UK where a judge ruled that since he'd told her from the beginning that he wasnt going to marry her, she cant deny him his rights to his kids. How true the story is, i have no idea but i know he lies alot and i dont trust him at all... His stories never add up. He still has phonecalls where he blows kisses, calls everyone baby, honey, sugar and i don't think he's learned how to zip it up just yet. Why would i want to go into a relationship with a man like that with my eyes wide open? Bad decision all around so, i wont make it. FULLSTOP.
Seeing as my job doesn't really pay me much, i may have to relocate or something... There used to be alot i loved about this city but at the moment, i cant think of one of them and that is just sad. The traffic is frustrating, the water in my area is bad and i have to buy water everyday to do basic stuff, the odds of meeting a decent guy are slimmer than slim and it deteriorates from there... Once upon a long time ago, Lagos was the city of my dreams but now i dont know... I just dont know... I'm not even sure what a good move is anymore and i dont want to get to the point i did last year... Depression is not something i want to suffer again this year, thanks a lot.
What to do now? I'll just keep a very busy travel calender as long as the money keep coming... It has to or i'll lose my mind. Besides, not having a relationship or any prospects in the horizon does nothing to persuade me otherwise.....
Here's the thing... If i dont find a man in 6months when i turn 30, i'll just have to bid Lagos farewell and take my search for my soulmate elsewhere. Who knows what i'll find?
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