RIGHT ON...

Okay, i read my horoscope and i subscribe to two different kinds... The regular horoscope and the single's romantic horoscope. Checked my romantic horoscope and was so shocked i kept staring at it for several minutes... It read: Dear Bee, You have a lot to offer when it comes to love so, why do you keep about your romantic life in terms of your so-called deficiencies? Think about what you can give as well as what you want to recieve...
That just about said it all... Sometimes these psychics really do hit the nail on the head. Often times when someone hurts me, i keep thinking about what i did wrong to make him hurt me... For instance, last week i cried because i thought Dave didnt think me good enough to be his girlfriend but what i forgot to think about what all he lost by not being with me... I forgot that i'm a charming lady with too many good qualities to count and fabolous to boot.
Apparently, i'm not the only woman who thinks this... Many of us act like we're so grateful to have a man in our lives and when they treat us like shit or say shit to us, we forget to remind them that they're not doing us a favour being with us... I really hate that i can be like that sometimes but i'm going to start working on it. The fact is when two people are together, it should be because they really like each other... That should be the only reason really. None of that ''you should be grateful i'm with you business''... NO MA'AM...
That said and done, i think i'm spineless... I'd decided i don't want to be with Button but i'm worried about hurting his feelings or alienating him that i have't told him yet. He called last night very very late to say he was going to come meet me today to take me to his place. Oh, and i'm supposed to spend the night. Told him i had a meeting in Ilupeju tomorrow morning and blubbered some excuse about car problems. He said okay but called me this morning while i was getting ready for church to say he'd pick me up and then drop me off at my meeting. Had to ask him if he had nothing to do... The guy is infuriating... Now, i know i have to be honest and tell him what i really feel about him so i can put an end to this. Just don't know how to do it yet...
Saw a really fine brother in church today after the service... He was standing outside talking to his brother when i turned around and saw him. Couldn't stop staring... He stared right back but i remembered where i was and walked away... Hmmm... I'd hate to be in church looking out for a fine bloke but dang!!! He was fine...
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Bee