ASSUMPTIONS... PRESUMPTIONS... WHATEVER

I have a crush on someone!!! There... Finally said it... Whew...
Always assumed crushes were for teenagers... I am almost 30 so that shoots that theory all the way to hell. Unfortunately, he's my friend and i have no intention of letting the crush get in the way of our friendship because i tend to go from crush to acute dislike in the blink of an eye... I have been accused of changing boyfriends like underwear... What do i know? That may be true but what do i care? Isn't that what being single is about? Having fun? I'll date up a storm in the next several weeks and i will not apologise for it. I probably am not cut out for monogamy and always look for an excuse to get out of it the minute i start feeling like i have to change things about myself to make the other party happy. Compromise is not in my dictionary... Therefore, the best way to go about my life is to just live it and enjoy it as much as i can... Life's too long to worry about stuff... It's the longest thing we have to do and to avoid boredom, one has to live it to the fullest and if dating alot is my way of living it, so be it. I had this plan to clip my wings but being a butterfly is the way to be and believe me, it saves one a lot of stress and worry... So, here i am now flying away...
Back to my crush, i walked into this building and saw a guy pouring petrol in his generator. He was tall, slim and light-skinned. Said hello to him, he smiled and that was it....... It hit me in the pit of my stomach, i developed an instant crush. After that day, whenever i see him i try to say something that'll make him smile at me. We became fast friends because i can be charming when i feel like it. Too bad that can't be everyday... It felt good to talk to him and it still does. I'm sure he also likes talking to me because he now has a habit of seeking me out to talk...
When i first saw him, i was with my friend... 2days later, she said he was gay... what??? I didn't know how she came to this annoying conclusion but i started watching out for tell-tale signs. It also didn't help that he lives with another guy and they always do stuff like movies and all that together... Women never came to visit and i started to believe my friend. One night, i had used an insecticide spray in my apartment and decided to go chill at his. When i knocked, they both jumped and had this guilty look on their faces that i didn't quite understand... Turned out that they'd been watching porn... In your boxers? Hellooooooooo..... Though i kept that thought to myself, from that day on i would begin to believe they might be gay... All of this. assumptions... Oh, did i mention he was my neighbour in the house i just moved to? Of course i didn't, silly me. Last week when i was having issues with Mr Man, he came over to mine as usual. It was late, we were talking and i decided i was just drunk enough to mention i had a crush on him but the guy just kept on talking like he didn't hear me. Waited for him to finish and then asked him if he heard what i said... Oh yes, he did. He just didn't want to say anything about it because he figured i'd had too much to drink and might regret what i just said in the cold, harsh light of day. True to his words, i did... Why? I did not see him at all for four days or so... He was avoiding me. Shit, i didn't plan for that to happen so, i decided to lay ambush... Finally caught him and asked him to ignore what i said... I didn't want him to be uncomfortable and i really liked being his friend and it's okay, i understand he's gay. The guy's jaw just dropped open....... Turned out the bloke has a girlfriend and she was even inside his house while i was talking to him outside. He asked me to come in and meet her which i did... I felt like the biggest fool ever... All thanks to assumptions... At least we're still friends.............................
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