I'M NOT FEELING THIS

The ball wasn't it for me at all... Felt like i was at a wedding reception and for those who know me, you all know i do not like weddings... I hate that people have to call the whole town to show how they feel about each other and say vows they'll ignore later that day. I find the whole thing a show off... I don't think i'll ever call a bunch of people just to let the man i love know i love him... If you feel it, you feel it... You don't need anyone's confirmation.
But that is my opinion. Other people may not agree with me............
Spent some more time obsessing over the dress this morning before i went to church and again when i came back the afternoon but there was really nothing i could do about it. Tried a skinny belt over it, it didn't work. Tied a scarf around my midsection like a bustier, it still didn't work. When i showed to my sister's boyfriend, he almost fell on the floor laughing and said it looked like a very long ''shimmy''... You know, the slip that Nigerian women wear under their wrapper. It was sad... just sad...
Decided to go with black harem pants, a white tank top and a black jacket that looks like a pea coat then accessorized with multiple long necklaces, a brown purse and dominatrix sandals. I looked like a rebel... A really hot rebel... You know, the kind you want to slam against the wall and do things to... wink wink...
There were guys at the ball alright but mostly old men, married men, attached men and very young boys... Didn't see anyone who looked like a guy i'd want to be caught dead in the sack with. Sat there alone for over an hour(Kemi fell last night and hurt her toe so, she couldn't make it) before i decided to ask Joe to meet me... Joe is the 22year old brother of a former best friend's new bestfriend... He likes me, i like him... As friends... We spent the whole time laughing at jokes the MC who's a comedian was making throughout the show and i wasn't so bored anymore... He made the event a little more interesting for me and i was grateful i called him otherwise i would've developed a serious case of BFM(bored out of my fucking mind)... That was good quick thinking. Joy who's one of the organisers of the event wanted me to go with her and a few of her friends to a new club that just opened in Osapa but i'd just had enough of that crowd and i craved the quietness of my own house so, i left... Joe followed me home to keep me company but ended up telling me he wanted to date me... OOPS
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