ONE STEP AT A TIME...

One beautiful but lonely christmas day, i made a decision that would change my life forever... I started writing a blog.
When i first started writing, i didn't know if anyone would bother to read it or not. I just wrote anyway... It gave me something to do and amazingly, people started reading the posts and i made a friend.
My girl G has a habit of bragging about her friends when they do something really fabulous and i was surprised to hear that she'd told this guy about my blog. He read it, loved it and sent me a mail... We became fast friends. Wrote to each other everyday and reading a mail and clutching my sides laughing became a regular thing for people to see... As a matter of fact, Mr Man told me once that he didn't believe for a minute that all the guy wanted was to be friends. He believed the guy was just softening me up before asking me out but i told Mr Man he was just jealous of my friendship and i didn't think that was the case with this guy...
I'll call him Chocolate...
For about 3months we wrote to each other everyday and it never occured to either of us to ask for phone numbers or plan a meeting... I found him very easy to talk to... He became my virtual best friend and there was almost nothing i didn't discuss with him.
Then came this friday and i went to Towers karaoke with G... She was sending messages on her blackberry (i didn't have one at the time) and smiling like a loon while i was doing my best to understand why because the karaoke was boring as hell... When she stopped typing for a minute, i asked her if she wanted to leave because i was bored. She said she'd like to.. Oh, by the way Chocolate is at Swe with his colleagues and maybe we should go there she said.
I was scared and excited in equal doses. I wasn't sure i wanted to meet him so as not to spoil everything. I was worried he may not be what i expect and our friendship will be compromised but i also wanted to meet him just because...
Remembered my cousin had mentioned something about going to Swe that morning at my place as well so, decided to call my cousin and ask if she was still there so we can meet her. I didn't want G to know that i wanted to use the opportunity to meet Chocolate too.
I'm pretty sure she will kill me when she reads this...
We got to Swe and just as i was parking, she said "oh, there he is"... Came out of the car to say hello and got hit... an unexpected electrical bolt that shot through my entire system. I just stood there and stared like a retarded person... Several minutes passed while G was talking to him and i'm unsure till this day that she knew what happened. Finally found my voice and asked that he come inside but he said he was tired and had to go home... Another time, he said.
After that day, i knew that if ever i saw him again i'd be done for so, i avoided every talk of meeting. For all i knew, i was just his virtual friend whom he ran into one day. I kept my feelings to myself and continued talking to him as a friend with the hope that it'll pass...
Then i got a blackberry, sent him the pin and started chatting with him. He told me he was travelling for work that weekend and will be away for a month... I can't remember who asked now but somehow we made a date to see a movie that evening...
I think i spent 2hrs or so agonizing over what to wear and it didn't help that i was having a bad hair day. Finally settled on a dress and went to meet him... I ended up getting there later than i planned because i had a flat tyre on my way.
I saw him and found that i had trouble meeting his eyes... I couldn't believe myself!!! Here i was behaving like a high school student speaking to her crush for the first time and that really pissed me off but i couldn't help it.
We saw a movie then went down to Cubes for drinks... Spent the next few hours talking but my heart was pounding really hard the whole time. It was thursday...
We chatted on blackberry messenger until saturday when he asked for my number... I gave it to him and he called... Sometime during the hour or so that we spoke, i blurted out that i had a crush on him... He left the next day...
In the last two weeks, we've spoken to each other everyday and there is no subject sacred... In the last two weeks, i've found myself on the road that i travelled once a long time ago... I wasn't ready for the journey but it seems like i was pushed onto the road when i wasn't looking... It was a road that caused me pain and happiness in a 70/30 measure with The Brit... If you guessed love, you got it right.
I am completely in love with this man and i have a feeling that i fell hard that night at the carpark of city mall...
So, he doesn't look like a Greek god but who cares? I'm in love with someone who loves me back and that's what counts...
The next step is to follow the road and see where it takes us...
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Bee